Me vs Him

It was happening several years ago.

A boy call me Mas Rimbang ! Mas Rimbang !

I didn't turn, because I am not Rimbang.

I wondered,Who was Rimbang? Why did the boy call me ‘him’. Are we looking the same?

I asked my familly about Rimbang.

Rimbang is the son of a Doctor near (far enough) from my house.

Time goes by.

I grew up.

Once or twice I met Rimbang finally. I try to find out the similarity between us.

I never find it. I just feel we are so different. Different face, different body, different perrsonality, and different destiny.

Do you know the meaning of the phrase ‘ wang sinawang’ ?

I think that is happening to me. I always think that he is luckier than me.

I am really sorry to My dearest God, I never meant to eliminate His gift to me. I only see he gets what I never got in my life.

I know I reached so many thing in my life, I am so gratefully with that. But can we just turn back time, and let me be him?